Amen! I’ve claimed this verse a lot the last week. This is purely a blog to share my struggles over the last few weeks. I won’t go into details but I thought,
since I share my victories and my sincerest goal is to give hope and encourage, then the fact that I still have days where I really need to be encouraged may show the super-naturalness of my ongoing peace (that only God gives) and that it’s not of me alone but through Him. By seeing my lower times and sharing how I know that with God’s grace I’ll pull through I pray I can be a bit more real to you so the victories I share, that bring me to dancing, will bring you to your feet as well!
A dear friend sent this verse to me this week to build me up. (Thank you Erin!)
Here’s the deal: I have been on Armour, a natural thyroid replacement medication, the last 10 weeks. I had been on Synthroid, a synthetic hormone, the last several years. Though the shift initially relieved symptoms that the Synthroid wasn’t helping, it takes a few months to level out, and now I’m not doing so well.
Though my T3 and rT3 levels are much better, my TSH levels are currently very high for me. My doctor is erring on the side of caution so I am waiting for more blood work before we increase my dose. It’s been a tough few weeks for sure.
Once the adjustment is made it still will take the better part of a month before I feel better. A huge bummer. These are the times I have to remind myself daily that God is bigger then all of this. He’s got me covered through this.
I am no longer on Welbutrin XL (a mood stabilizer) which is fantastic (to be free from)! The symptoms I’m dealing with due to my levels being off, though, like panic attacks, anxiety, and basically extreme PMS, were buffeted a bit by the Welbutrin in the past. It makes this round of adjusting much more difficult. I’ve had to rely even more on my word, reciting verses no matter what symptoms effect my day.
And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his life span?
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
I also have a sick baby boy who is now on a steroid for cough and an antibiotic for a sinus infection and ear infections and I have had an eye infection all week I thought was just mean allergies. So now I’m on a steroid (which isn’t so fun with hashi’s) and an antibiotic too. Ughhh. When it rains….
He took our illnesses and bore our diseases.
This has been my plan through this…
1. Staying open with my husband. Letting him know I’m not feeling good and apologizing for the moodiness and unkind tones I’m taking with him. He is an amazing man and doesn’t see the effect the changes in my meds are having on me unless I tell him. I work hard to be fair and let him know, and I listen when he’s feeling equally frustrated. He covers me in prayer support. He’s a true gift from the Lord. He’s my rock.
2. I spend a lot of time in my word. My hashi’s seems to effect me the most in my thinking so I am constantly giving my thoughts over to the Lord. This disease is why I was misdiagnosed bipolar, the hashi’s reeks havoc on my thought processes, but my God is the great I Am and he sent his son to pay the price for sin and return us to covenant with him, by GRACE!!!! By the stripes on his back I am healed. I claim it aloud daily!
2 Cor 10:5
And take every thought captive to obey Christ. (Match it to God’s word, if it is contradictory to his promises then throw it out!)
But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
3. Being open with my children. They are young so deep explanations aren’t called for but I apologize when I’ve been unfair and come clean when they make a valid point. My daughter turns 5 next week and she’s amazing. She can sense when I’m having a hard day and she’ll come over to me and pray over me. What a blessing. I want her to know she can count on me, but also that I make mistakes, and I’m not perfect. She so readily excepts that her heavenly father is blameless, and that he IS perfect. Her childlike faith so encourages me. She doesn’t focus on the medications and the doctors. She reminds me that I too need to call on his name, and he always answers.
I pray this builds you up! I’m not perfect. I made several mistakes this week, but focusing on them, regretting them, only causes stress, anxiety, and that horrid feeling that will grow in the pit of your stomach if you let it.
The Lord’s yoke is easy. His burden is light. He’s not in the guilt business, that’s all Satan. I’m not giving Satan that kind of hold. I may have to give over my failures and words repeatedly before Satan’s sting with them fades, but it does fade. God’s word is true.
I leave you with a few more verses I focus on. May they build you up this coming week. Focus on them and the Lord. He won’t let you down!
Those who live according to the spirit set their minds on the things of the spirit. … to set the mind on the spirit is life and PEACE.
1 Cor 14:33
For God is not a good of confusion but of peace.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication make your requests known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, well guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.